November 20th, 2003

Illuminati

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We can't make everyone happy all of the time - their wants and needs are conflicting.

We could possibly make one other person happy all of the time if we made our life subservient to theirs.

But you can't live for another person, at least not for more than a short period of time - you hav to live to make yourself happy, or what's the point of living at all?

Which isn't to say that making other people happy can't be a part of your life, or even a large part. But how much is too much? And how selfish is too selfish?

There aren't hard and fast rules for these things - hell, there aren't hard and fast rules for life. People would like to think there were (hence the vast number of books which sell themselves to you by telling you that they contain the secret to happiness), but life doesn't have the hard edges that allow rules to work well. The best you can manage are heuristics - methods of arriving at a pretty good solution, most of the time, fairly quickly. And even they break down in particularly fuzzy situations.

Sometimes you're on you own, there are no rules to guide you, and every answer seems wrong, because every possible solution leads to someone getting hurt.

So what do you do? You do your best. And then you lose sleep wondering if you could have done it better.
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Further Excavations have revealed

More toothwork done today. I went to see the boss at 9am and told her that last week I was bugger all use in the afternoon, due to sitting about about feeling anaesthetised and sore. So I took the afternoon off after my 11am appointment. Sat about at home, chatted to Ed and generally took it easy. With the result that I feel ok. Which is always a good thing to feel.

Dropped in to Waterstones on the way home to check out Java books. Found a good looking one and discovered that it was well liked because it was available online and was constantly updated due to critiquing from the general population. So I decided to save myself the £30 and just read it online.

Now off to play with it...
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